Thread:NoktiKlepto/@comment-27821571-20161130180824

If you're wondering when you'll ever get rid of me, then don't worry, it'll be shortly.

Sorry for sending another one of these "wall" messages, and I promise they won't be bitching for your personal details.

Anyways, if you're wondering why I'm contacting you after all this time, it's because, with all these "farewell" messages I've sent you, well, let me explain..

As you can see, I think it was a bad idea for me to become so close to people on the MLP wiki, because most of those relationships now are either practically non-existent, or have just turned plain sour. The most significant relationship was with you.

So far, I was blaming others (not upfront) for becoming so close to me, and you might be able to see that considering how bittersweet my "farewell" messages have been to you. Can I just say that it was yours or anyone elses fault for getting so close to me, it was my fault for getting so close to people, only for the relationships to turn to dust after an extended period of time.

I simply shouldn't have gotten so close to anyone on the MLP wiki. It was a bad idea in the end. I hurt a lot of people (you know who, and I won't mention them here), I got too involved, and in the end, I shouldn't have done it. I'm not angry at myself, as I'm a good mood, and it would be stupid of me to make myself feel guilty, but if you're wondering why I didn't just post this as a blog or as a section on my profile, well, this is why...

This is a personal message, and I don't think I've ever really apologised for all these things. I know everyone makes mistakes, but this is my best attempt to make up for them. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for forcing you to talk to me nonstop. I'm sorry I never gave you a break with all the hugging stuff. I'm sorry I relied on you for my own behaviour. I'm sorry for dragging your personal life into mine. I'm sorry for treating my mistakes as your fault. I'm sorry for hanging around you even when neither of us were interested. I'm sorry for involving you in all my personal problems. I'm sorry for acting like I used to be mature. Finally, I'm sorry for causing you all this trouble...

I know you might not see all these things as major, and I probably sound a little bit overdramatic, but I just shouldn't have become friends with people that much older than me. I clearly wasn't mature enough. I indeed did take things too far with you. I want you to know, you didn't have to pretend you liked it all. I know it's unusual of me to keep coming back and back. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for tolerating me for so long.

My memories with you just seem so vague at this point. I'm sorry for forcing so much upon you. Feel free to share your thoughts, it'll be a very long time if we see eachother again. 